I Wish You Understood Our Struggle- Fort-Hood Shooting Once Again

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At least one person is dead and 14 others were injured after a shooting erupted in Fort Hood, Texas, which may have involved more than one suspect, according to numerous news outlets.

The entire base is currently under lockdown and multiple victims were reported near the Battle Simulation Center on 65th and Warehouse Ave.

CNN reported that a suspected shooter died during the incident.

The FBI and the ATF were on the scene along with military police and local law enforcement.

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On Monday, Fox News reported that the FBI sent a tip to multiple law enforcement agencies entitled “Planned Ft. Hood-inspired Jihad against US Soldiers by Army Recruit,” which told them to be on the lookout for a recent Army recruit known as “Booker, also known as Mohammad Abdullah Hassan” who was allegedly planning an “imminent jihad.”

But the news outlet updated the story yesterday stating that he was no longer considered an immediate threat by the FBI.

FLASHBACK: FBI, military hunt ex-Army recruit suspected of plotting ‘Ft. Hood-inspired jihad’

Ft. Hood was also the scene of a mass shooting on Nov. 5, 2009 where Nidal Malik Hasan, a U.S. Army major and psychiatrist, killed 13 people and injured more than 30 others.

As this day began I arose with anxiety and uncertainty of where I was exactly. After a few hours of reflection I was able to funnel the emotions I was encountering. I was in Kuwait and Desert Shield reliving the trauma associated with each of those encounters. The weather being dark and gloomy coupled with showers didn’t make my emotional state any better.

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The dissociation I experienced before hearing this horrific news of another soldier really made me feel like I just don’t want to be here anymore because I am afraid of acting out like this myself. While all of us would like to believe that we are going to escape the occurrence of terrible events in our lives, the chances are that any one individual will experience at least one major trauma in their life.



Emotionally overwhelming events can send shock waves through every aspect of our lives. They can damage our psychological stability and take away our sense of well being. Uncontrollable, devastating experiences usually generate feelings of being unsafe, powerless, and vulnerable.

They can cause a group of symptoms called Post traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) which is as powerful and difficult to cope with as any other psychological disorder. A traumatic event may be a one time occurrence, such as a serious car accident, witnessing a
murder, or being raped. Or it can be a series of repetitive events such as ongoing incest or combat. Trauma may be physical, psychological, or a combination of both.


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Some people react more strongly to such events than others. Or two people may develop different types of psychological symptoms in reaction to trauma. This is because the impact of negative events is heavily influenced by the way in which it is perceived. For example, suppose that two different persons are involved in a car accident. Afterwards, one is frightened and has
difficulty riding in automobiles because they are convinced that they are going to die. They have difficulty driving and are bothered by images of another car running into them head on. They may blame themselves for reacting slowly and not getting out of the way in the original accident.  Another person may react differently. They may totally blame the other driver who hit them. Their reaction may be one of anger and retaliation through lawsuits. For them, the accident may prove that life is unfair and that others cannot be trusted. While they continue to be preoccupied by the wreck, they may have less anxiety and depression. They may instead feel primarily angry.


Did You Know?
–In North America, 17,000,000 people experience traumatic events each year, and of
those, 25% go on to develop PTSD.

–Forty percent of Americans have been exposed to a traumatic event before the age of
30, and of these one in four will develop PTSD.

–Current estimates are that 45% of women will be raped at some point in their lifetime.
The lifetime rate of occurrence of PTSD in rape victims is 35%.

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–The trauma of rape produces the highest rate of long term PTSD symptoms of any
single traumatic event. Survivors are more depressed a year after victimization than
they are immediately following the assault. And many have not recovered as much as
four to six years after the rape.

–Three percent of women develop PTSD after an aggravated assault.

–Ten to 30% of car accident victims will develop PTSD.

–Only 4 out of every 1000 soldiers in World War I probably had PTSD, but 31% of Viet
Nam vets had the symptoms of this disorder.

–Between 16% and 34% of women are physically abused by their partner at some point
in their lives. Some estimates are as high as one out of every two women experiencing
such abuse.

–34% of boys and 48% of girls reported attempted or completed sexual victimization.
Fifty to 70% of psychiatric patients report being abused as children.

What is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?

People are generally very relieved when a traumatic event finally passes, feeling that now they can put the situation behind them and that everything will be alright. But emotional distress can sometimes occur to a degree that it leaves an enduring imprint upon a person’s life. Sometimes, people have difficulty coming to terms with frightening memories, and they may be strongly affected by them for years to come. They can become frozen in time so to speak. Images related to trauma can linger or resurface years later, and along with them can come feelings of terror or depression. Sometimes, the aftermath symptoms begin immediately following a stress. Other times, they being only years later, such as after a policeman has retired, or after a physically traumatized wife leaves an abusive marriage. Early repetitive childhood abuse can be so devastating that it actually interferes with the development of a sense of self and adversely affects the very foundation of the personality. When symptoms interfere to a significant degree with a person’s life, it may be an indication that they have developed a condition termed “Post Traumatic Stress Disorder” (PTSD).


PTSD can occur in crime victims (such as in rape, assault, or bombings); witnesses to violent crimes; civilians and soldiers in war zones; victims of natural catastrophes (tornadoes, hurricanes, floods); victims of animal assaults; traumatic accident victims; victims of child abuse; and medical personnel and volunteers who assist in accident and disaster situations. PTSD can affect every area of a person’s life. Emotionally it can create feelings of anxiety, anger, guilt, loss of self-esteem, helplessness, loss of trust, and irritability. In terms of a person’s thinking, it can lead to confusion, difficulty concentrating and remembering, difficulty planning for the future, negative thoughts about the future, and intrusive memories. Following a trauma some people feel like they
are going crazy. Some may be filled with nervous energy while others feel exhausted and unable to perform even minimal daily tasks. Some react by withdrawing while others want to be surrounded by people 24 hours a day. Some feel solely responsible for what happened while others are enraged at the people or events whom they blame for the experience. Although PTSD is categorized as an anxiety disorder, it can also include additional emotions such as depression, shame, guilt, anger, and grief. Trauma victims may also have difficulty imagining that there is a future for them. This experience is referred to as having a “foreshortened future.”Trauma victims generally feel that they are now different from others. Their experience seems so removed from normal human events that they feel set apart. They believe that others cannot really appreciate what they are experiencing and what they have been through.




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