Day: April 14, 2013


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It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad.

C. S. Lewis

As one of the most controversial rappers in hip hop history, DMX has really had it tough.

In the last 5 years he has been in and out of jail, and been in news headline after news headline.

EXCLUSIVE: DMX: “I Just Been Made Deacon Of A Church!”

He’s had a lot of making up to do with his family members in the last couple of years, including with his wife and children, and now Iyanla is putting him to the test.

Last night, the DMX episode aired of Iyanla’s “Fix My Life”, and it was one of the most stirring and emotional episodes she will probably ever do.

DETAILS: DMX Not Playing Big Meech In Movie

From crying over his mother and the love he has for multiple women in his life, to cursing Iyanla out, it’s an unmissable episode.

You know who how you know the episode was really real? Hours before it aired, DMX gave an exclusive statement to AllHipHop denouncing the show.

Through his representative Domenick Nati of Nati Celebrity Services, here’s what he

“DMX agreed to be a guest on ‘Iyanla: Fix My Life’ with the understanding that she would be helping his relationships with his 10 children,” the statement says. “When he arrived for the taping, most of the content was focused on his struggles with drugs and poor parenting. Iyanla did not ‘fix’ DMX’s life just made his image worse, and does not have DMX’s personal written consent to use the footage.“


Well we captured some of the top 10 most memorable moments from the episode that you shouldn’t have missed, so check out our list below!

1. He cries while talking with Iyanla about his mother and how it’s hard to love just one woman.

2. His reaction when Iyanla asks boldly if he’s high during the interview.

3. Iyanla tells him that his friends and family might be waiting for the call any day that he’s dead.

4. He tells her to “shut the f*ck up” while having a discussion with his first son Xavier.

5. He admits to smoking crack.
6. His wife says they haven’t spoken in months, despite being together for 24 years.

7. His son has been afraid to tell him how he feels for fear of the backlash. He also admits that they have “no relationship” as of today.

8. Despite the bad treatment, Xavier admits that he can forgive DMX as a father.

9. DMX and his son Xavier reunite for the first time after not having seen each other in a year and a half.

10. DMX walks out on Iyanla after claiming she keeps “running her mouth”.

DMX and his son reunite after not speaking or seeing eachother for over a year:

The process to change is painful. It is work to do in-order to regain the trust of individuals after the destructive habits we acquire, but if you give the simplicity of the gospel of Jesus Christ a chance He will do exceedingly abundantly above what you can ever ask or imagine. Truth is required and reality about the truth you are seeking, not the truth that fits my sickness. There is one truth and that is Jesus death, burial, and Resurrection.

I am a Man Veteran who know this O’ to Well!!!

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The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential… these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence.


I am going to let this video speak for me. I came home in this condition and “But God” I don’t know where I would be. We as Americans take the sacrifice that soldiers make.

Decorated, educated and experienced in warfare and life, but convicted as a felon and once addicted to cocaine and fabulous living I came home from nine campaigns with an expectation of entitlements because I served under adverse and stressful conditions. Faced with the reality that no one owed me nothing I tried to self diagnose and went self will run riot. I never taped a flag to a shopping cart and got a trusted dog for my companion, but I was sick and the VA said we can not help you. If It were not for praying people and a will to win and be something in life there go I.

As the media pays more attention to the invisible scars soldiers can bring home from service, a common picture has emerged: that of the strong, battle-hardened young man who is susceptible to post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

But there is another face of mental illness in the U.S. Armed Forces, and it’s a female one.

Certainly, far fewer women than men join the armed forces. And until very recently, women were formally banned from combat. But plenty of women veterans are dealing with the unexpected aftereffects of military service.

Here are two women veterans’ stories. Each is coping with a different (but related) mental disorder while serving in the military.

After Mary, 40, was sexually assaulted by a fellow service member, the resultant post-traumatic stress symptoms combined to make her life hellish. Perhaps unsurprisingly, the trauma resulted in a psychiatric diagnosis—in her case, post-traumatic stress disorder.

According to the National Center for PTSD at the United States Department of Veterans Affairs:

Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can occur after someone goes through a traumatic event like combat, assault, or disaster. Most people have some stress reactions after a trauma. If the reactions don’t go away over time or disrupt your life, you may have PTSD.

A person with PTSD may go into a fight-or-flight reaction in response to seemingly harmless stimuli like the sound of a car starting or the sight of a door opening. Mary is still in the military. She is stationed CONUS (within the continental United States), and she works in the field of health. She’s reticent about details: “I haven’t been terribly quiet about what happened to me, but I do not disclose that I have PTSD. If I did, I fear I would lose my current position within the service and ultimately, be removed from the service.”

She says, “PTSD is insidious; it creeps up on you. First, you may experience a moment of panic when you are in a crowded area. For most of ‘us,’ Wal-Mart is a PTSD nightmare. You may startle easy, way too easily. You’ll never be able to sit with your back to a door or respond in a ‘normal’ manner to someone who catches you off guard. If you don’t relive the experience during the day, your psyche ensures that you work through your issue at night in the form of sheet-tangling, sweat-soaked nightmares that no one should have to endure. These are the nightmares that wake you from the deepest sleep and cast a dark gloom over the whole of the next day.”

She says that for military service members like her (as well as for veterans), the best PTSD support groups are the ones that are closed to civilians. She adds, “Sometimes, there’s things only another service member can understand.”

When asked if she’d still join the military if she had the opportunity to do it all over again, Mary says, “Yes. I’m willing to bet the majority of us would all answer yes.”

What Trina remembers the most about her bout with severe depression was that nobody else in the Navy seemed to notice.

Trina joined up when she was 20 and spent nine years in the Navy. Among other things, she worked on diesel engines as part of her long-term goal to become a professional mechanic. But she tells Take Part that by the end of her service she was “sick of all the ruthless competition just to get promoted. You couldn’t trust anyone.”

She adds, “Also, it was destroying what little mental health I had left.”

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According to the Veterans Administration:

Many symptoms of depression overlap with the symptoms of PTSD. For example, with both depression and PTSD, you may have trouble sleeping or keeping your mind focused. You may not feel pleasure or interest in things you used to enjoy. You may not want to be with other people as much. Both PTSD and depression may involve greater irritability. It is quite possible to have both depression and PTSD at the same time.

As Trina tells it, the darkness crept up gradually, eventually affecting her military service. She says, “I went from doing my work, and always looking for more, to doing absolutely nothing and finding ways to not be around, including being gone for two afternoons because I couldn’t face anyone. I was a teacher at our tech school at the time and was known for always being there for the students and helping them out. Suddenly, I avoided all of them. When I did end up in the hospital, everyone was shocked. My Chief even told my parents that he had no idea.”

After a hospital stay to treat severe depression, Trina returned to work. She says she tried to educate her fellow troops about the reality of mental illness, but felt they didn’t listen. And at least one higher-up was particularly insensitive.

Trina tells Take Part, “About six months later, I heard someone very high in our chain of command talking loudly about how a student was faking wanting to kill himself so he could get out of the school.”

Are you watching your Community and the Bahavior of its Teens?

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Tell me and I forget. Teach me and I remember. Involve me and I learn.

Benjamin Franklin

With all the recent suicides over shadowing our teens in the world in the last two months our times of devotion and prayer meetings should be filled with breath prayers and on the ramparts of our church youths. I really feel for the families of these young girls. The people that made them victims are to be considered as sick and in need as well for spiritual prayers.

SARATOGA, California — Eight days after being sexually assaulted by friends while passed out at a party, and then humiliated by online photos, 15-year-old Audrie Pott posted on Facebook that her life was ruined, “worst day ever,” and hanged herself, the family’s lawyer said.

For the next eight months, her family struggled to figure out what happened to their soccer-loving, artistic, horse-crazy daughter, whose gentle smile, long dark hair and shining eyes belied a struggling soul.

And then on Thursday, a California sheriff’s office arrested three 16-year-old boys on suspicion of sexual battery. The arrests “reopened a wound” for family members of Pott, and they have gone into seclusion, family attorney Robert Allard said.

“The family has been trying to understand why their loving daughter would have taken her life at such a young age and to make sure that those responsible would be held accountable,” Allard said.

“After an extensive investigation that we have conducted on behalf of the family, there is no doubt in our minds that the victim, then only 15 years old, was savagely assaulted by her fellow high school students while she lay on a bed completely unconscious,” he said.

Matt was 14 years old when he was baptized at Second Life Baptist church, a one-room country church only a few miles from his house. A few months later, Matt dropped out of the church. The pastor and his wife visited him several times, but failed to persuade Matt to return to church. Everyone was concerned for him, but no one suspected the real reason for his absence. Matt was expecting a child. About a month before the baby was expected to deliver, Matt cleaned his room, emptied his school locker, and wrote a note to his mother:

“You kept asking me if I was OK and I kept telling you I was, but I wasn’t OK. I’m sorry, Mom. I’ve got too many problems. I am taking the easy way out.”

Matt left that day before his mother arrived home from work. He walked to the railroad tracks near his house, knelt between the rails, and folded his hands over his face as Amtrak 168 barreled down upon him. The train engineer, a man who had a fourteen-year-old daughter of his own, later said that when he saw Matt, it was too late to stop the train. He watched him cross himself before he died.

Suicide is not a funny thing. People everyday consider “ending it all.” In fact, Suicide is the third leading cause of death among teens 15-24 year olds. According to the National Institute of Mental Health, eighteen teenagers per day kill themselves in the United States. Every 80 minutes another teenagers commits suicide. Over a hundred teens per week, and the total come to a staggering 6,500 lives lost. Not only that, but over 1000 teens per day attempt to commit suicide. That’s almost 1 teen per minute. 73% of kids admit having thought about suicide. How many of you reading this blog know someone who has talked about or attempted suicide? The statistics show that at least 70% of you know someone who has attempted it.

Every suicide is an attempt to say, “I NEED HELP.” People will use faulty reasoning, and have a deep sense of hopelessness. They’ll say things like, “nobody cares about me,” “I wish I were dead,” “this world would better off without me.” I often wonder why someone would do something like this, but then I remember when I was in high school. On many occasions after a fight with my then girlfriend, I’d have visions of driving my car into a ditch at 90 mph. I guess I had those thoughts myself. I thought, “I’ll show her…she’ll admit she was wrong when I’m dead.” It was that faulty reasoning that made me have those thoughts. I guess as a teenager you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. There are so many things, and people vying for your attention, and sometimes you just can’t take it. Your parents are always doggin’ you, you just broke up with a boyfriend who cheated on you with your best friend, your heart hurts, you think it would just be better to not exist at all…then the pain will go away. So, what do you do? You cut your wrists. You don’t really know what’ll happen, but who cares. You want the pain to stop. You’re tired of feeling the way you do, and you just want to stop hurting. It’s easy.

The truth is that others have felt that way before you. Others have dealt with hurt, with pain. Others have wished they didn’t exist. Psalm 73:14, “all day long I have been plagued; I have been punished every morning.” Those others are people from the Bible-God’s love letter. What!?! The Bible, a book of hope contains stories of suicide? Yes. Job 3:1-11, “ 1 After this, Job opened his mouth and cursed the day of his birth. 2 He said: “May the day of my birth perish, and the night it was said, ’A boy is born!’ That day—may it turn to darkness; may God above not care about it; may no light shine upon it. 5 May darkness and deep shadow [a] claim it once more; may a cloud settle over it; may blackness overwhelm its light. 6 That night—may thick darkness seize it;
may it not be included among the days of the year nor be entered in any of the months. 7 May that night be barren; may no shout of joy be heard in it. 8 May those who curse days [b] curse that day, those who are ready to rouse Leviathan. 9 May its morning stars become dark; may it wait for daylight in vain and not see the first rays of dawn, 10 for it did not shut the doors of the womb on me to hide trouble from my eyes. 11 “Why did I not perish at birth, and die as I came from the womb?”

The same man, who only a chapter before this fell on his face and praised God after the Lord allowed Satan to take away everything from him, here is wishing he was dead. Then there were those who actually committed suicide—Samson- Judges 16:29-30, “Then Samson reached toward the two central pillars on which the temple stood. Bracing himself against them, his right hand on the one and his left hand on the other, Samson said, “let me die with the Philistines!” Then he pushed with all his might, and down came the temple on the rulers and all the people in it. Thus he killed many more when he died than while he lived.” Samson killed himself along with the Philistines in one final attempt at revenge. King Saul took his own life. 1 Chronicles 10:4-5 says, “Saul said to his armor-bearer, ‘draw your sword and run me through, or these uncircumcised fellows will come and abuse me.’ but his armor-bearer was terrified and would not do it; so Saul took his own sword and fell on it.” 2 Samuel 17:23, “When Ahithophel saw that his advice had not been followed, he saddled his donkey and set out for his house in his hometown. He put his house in order and then hanged himself. So he died and was buried in his father’s tomb.” 1 Kings 16:18, “When Zimri saw that the city was taken, he went into the citadel of the royal palace and set the palace on fire around him. So he died.” And then there was Judas, the disciple who betrayed Jesus. Matthew 27:3-5, “when Judas, who had betrayed him, saw that Jesus was condemned, he was seized with remorse and returned the thirty silver coins to the chief priests and the elders. ‘I have sinned,’ he said, ‘for I have betrayed innocent blood.’ ‘What is that to us?’ they replied. ‘That’s your responsibility.’ So Judas threw the money into the temple and left. Then he went away and hanged himself.”

Judas was so wrought with guilt that he decided to take his own life.